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Name: Tiffany
Birthday: 12/30/1980
Gender: Female
Interests: I am interested in changing my entire lifestyle in a new york minute....
Expertise: beauty, social butterfly, ppl pleaser, jabber jaw, luv'in life....
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  milkMade
Member Since:
3/24/2005
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| Well I haven't been inspired to write in a very long time! a lot has changed in the last 3 or so months. I have been working two jobs about 50-70 hours a week and trying to finally fulfill my destiny. Along the way something strange has happened. Quite unexplainable really... I met someone, I think presumptuous as it may sound THE ONLY ONE I ever needed to meet. I have shared so many memories is such a short period of time it feels like somehow we already knew each other. I have my own spiritual motivations and understandings of how god works in such mysterious ways. Though I must say I was willing to give it all away and had lost faith that there was someone THE ONLY ONE put here for me. Now I regret ever assuming there was no TRUE happiness out there for me. I am on some kind of amazing free spirited high. No drugs no alcohol just pure LOVE. I never imagined it to be this good. I had really come to the conclusion that I had figured it all out, and life was just a game, may the best player win. I am ashamed that I would sum up a lifetime of opportunity and eternal bliss as unattainable. I guess I let the stereotypes become identities for all my lost hopes and dreams. Though now someone THE ONLY ONE has somehow lifted my spirits in only 3 days which will turn into 3 months which will become 3 years, that will lead me deeper and deeper into the true meanings of infinite LOVE...... | | |
| Hello everyone out there in computer land... Well I've been busy busy, yet sometimes no amount of busy will put my heart to rest. I just remodeled my mothers bathroom, it was in dire need of a makeover that's for sure! Alil early mothers day present, no more mold spores! Sorry I know if you've been over you'll truly miss those! NOT Really! So I like it it's a nautical theme, nothing to extravagant. I'm on a budget ya know. But I think it brought some new energy to the house it's a lot more airy and lets the sun shine through so we can feel the warmth of gods love and see the beauty of the wonderful day he has created. It definitely feels a lot better than the dusty scary dungeon of mold and rust. he he I'm such a clean freak, I know! Well emotions have been a roller coaster lately. I do remind myself that god loves me and has brought me back for a reason. Though I feel so alone. I know he is here with me. I'm just wonder if those in closest proximity to me are. I am at times a very restless soul and forget how to relax and just breath. Though I know peace was given to me it's not one of my stronger suites! I feel he has given me other wonderful gifts. Writing, Communicating, Compassion, Love, Art, The ability to enhance outer beauty to match that of the person inside! It feels good to have these qualities I just cant wait to live the rest of my life finally knowing and not always questioning my direction. Whether it's my carrier, lifestyle, love, spirit, I just can't wait to put it all to work. I know in some way miraculous things will happen and I do have a chance to be reborn with god in the now. I try to remember but if any of you have inspirational testimonies or just want to remind me how good god has been to you, please send a comment. I would like to hear more about you and yours. Also bro I know your a very hard worker and when your not doing that you have an amazing group of friends to turn to and interact with. But I miss you...... I don't know how or what else to say than I miss you.... I wish we could try, or you would see I do try today and everyday I try.... I am far from perfect and I admire the person you are. Though sometimes even when we are in the same house we don't know each other and it breaks my heart. Even though we don't fight like cats and dogs I feel a lot of resentment or just plain hurt from you. I just want to be a part of the few important people in your life that get to see your light shine... I pray things will get better or perhaps I can just see you more clearly. You sound like a wonderful young man as I've read on your site. It makes me think I probably wouldn't really know anything about you any other way.. This makes me very sad and confused......... | | |
| Today my mother took us on this amazing hike near a river it was soooo beautiful. Even though everything is still dead from winter it was very serene. We had a picnic out over the stream it just feels right being here. It's like gods holding me in the palm of his hands and opening my eyes again to all he has given us. I am breath taken with the peacefulness of the woods, how the stream and rocks whisper in the winds presents. All my pain and stress was lifted, maybe not for good, but life is an endless struggle. I think more days like this will remind me that perhaps it's not a struggle with life, but one to appreciate nature's intelligence in all our endeavors. It reminded me to just breath in a little more deeply, it will all be okay....I also attended church for the first time in a very long, overdue time.. The message really did hit home if ya know what I mean bro! Yeah growing up and loving our WEAK side isn't easy is it.. I guess it just takes time and maybe this newy0rkm1nute will be a little longer than I had thought... Thanks all for the support, god knows I need it... | | |
| Yeah so my New York minute looks like an eternity right about now anyhow. I haven't been in such a slow paced enviroment in soooooo long. I know it will be good for my heart and soul, but it's quite a change. Well I'll just give it to god for now....... | | |
|  Happy Easter all!!!! | | |
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